Tuesday, August 19, 2003
ok.. the last time i blogged was like a mth ago? haha...
felt like blogging today coz i dun really feel good now.. cant really explain the feeling... mebbe insecure? abt frens and everything... i realised that my world is so small.. stagnant mebbe? then again, xin hui's nick is sooo true... day by day nothing seems to change, but after a while when u look back, u realise everything has changed... im juz so caught up in studies, church (of coz), God, frens (which onie include like shi hui and shi hui, sumtimes hp and meryl... and onie on training days the vball pple... even less than sumtimes, yilin... of coz im more than happy wif the pple i hang out with...a few really close frens is better than a huge circle of frens), sum1 and myself (i am too selfish) yeah.. this life is good.. but it does leave me feeling insecure, inferior, perhaps not really alive sumtimes... everything seems unstable... like i can lose them any minute... i have no choice but to cling onto them.. mebbe seeming a little desperate at times(to myself)... i act like i dun really mind any loss, its the onie way i noe how to... mebbe its juz today that little thing by little thing cums back to me... with my loss of memory nowadays.. this recallation is hard to cum by... hai~ i even caused a little misunderstanding due to my stupidity!! argh.. all my folt...
& 8:31:00 PM
He calls you by name .
